He’s gone…

He’s dead...

My blessed Apollo is gone, dead! Apollo was everything to me and now he's fucking gone...and never coming back… never…He was my first horse, best friend, my love, my companion, my heart, and my soul. He taught me everything I know about horses, about life, compassion, and was my inspiration to follow my dreams. He was everything to me! Those stupid Vets! They couldn’t save him, I couldn’t save him! I feel so guilty…there had to have been something I could have done… something. I tried my best, but it wasn’t enough and now he’s dead! We didn’t catch the EPM in time! If only I had done something sooner, maybe I could have saved him! He started to improve, get over the EPM but then all of a sudden it all went tumbling down! He could hardly stand… it was heartbreaking to see him struggling painfully just to move, using all his strength just to take a couple steps without falling. The vet said it was a miracle he hadn’t fallen yet and hurt himself… but just then he did… … …

He couldn’t get up… I was crying my heart out knowing there was nothing I could do… except hold him, grasp his mane and sweet loving face in my hands for the last time as the vet gave the injection. I will never see his sweet face again…He was so sweet-natured, loving, patient; daring, playful...He meant everything to me. He rejoiced with me when I was happy, and gave me his mane to cry in when I was sad. But now he’s not there for me to cry with when I need him the most…he can’t be… he’s fucking dead! We were supposed to grow old together… I was supposed to take him on to college… and hopefully one day put my children on his back. And when he was to old to ride… he would retire quietly to my pasture and fill his days with sunshine, endless grazing, and my never ending love and nurturing care for him… … … but not anymore… all those dreams are gone, cut short, dead. I buried him out in the pasture and placed and small cross to mark the last place were he lie… I will never forget him. At least he is no longer suffering. Even the other horses new the end was coming… they stayed by his side all day, not even leaving to eat… and when he was gone… they never made a sound. They never called out him for once like they normally would when I separated him from them.

I will never forget you Apollo, or stop loving you. You were the best horse any girl could dream of having and you made all my dreams come true. I so sorry I couldn’t save you, couldn’t be there for me when you needed me the most. I failed. I wasn’t even able to repay all the kindness, loving care you had given me all these years and now I can’t even see you loving face ever again…

My best friend is gone, and I will never hear his call for me in the morning again.

My God, my horse is dead...My baby is gone.

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~@pollo22

Apollo was able to come home today after being at the vet for a week and a half. I went and picked him up this afternoon and he seams to be doing a little better. He is only able to stay at home for a couple of weeks then he will have to go back to the vet for more treatment. While he is at home I have to give a daily medication and keep him under constant supervision. After his second session of treatment, if all goes well, he will be able to remain at home however he will have to take an oral medication for three or four months or until he is not showing any more symptoms of EPM, which can take up to 6 months!
I just wanted to thank everyone who has kept us in your prayers. I really appreciated your support and encouragement and it helped me get through this very difficult time. But please do not stop! Apollo will slowly recover but it’s going to take A LOT OF TIME, almost 6 months! Please continue to pray for Apollo in hope that he will have the fastest recovery possible and continues to grow stronger and stronger.

Thank you,
@pollo22.

Well, a lot of things have happened over the past few days. Everything started on Saturday evening when Oklahoma was hit by the largest ice storm in its history. Over 400,000 people were left without electricity including myself. I haven’t power for 4 days or running water. I had to go to the local shelter to take a shower and use their internet to post this journal. We live on 25 acres and every single tree is either broken in half, has lost all its branches, or simply collapsed from the weight of the ice all together. It’s going to take years to put the city back together again. And that’s not all... ... among everything going on my best friend, Apollo, has been diagnosed with the devastating disease EPM. EPM is a neurological disease that affects a horse's brain, spinal cord and nervous system. I went out to the pasture feed him on Saturday evening to find him hardly able to stand. He was so off balance and almost collapsed several times. We took to the vet immediately and he has been there ever since. He will remain at the vet for a couple more weeks to go through testing, and treatment. EPM can be treated if caught early enough but if not it can be fatal... so please pray that we caught it in time. Please keep Oklahoma City, along with the 400,000 that have been left without power that relief is brought to them soon. Also please, please, please, pray for my one and only love Apollo that God will place his healing hands on him and return him to me with a clean bill of health.

Thank you,
@pollo22

OK... ... for the past couple weeks I have received about 5-10 notes everyday and they are all from spammers advertising different things! This is driving me crazy! I hate Spammers!!! Is any one else having this problem?